LAYOUT THEME: take me away.
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LAYOUT CREATED BY: leslie pham.
----------------------------He was my yoshi.
This morning, I decided I was finally going to look through my old phone bills and try and find Ryan's number. I tried every other way I knew possible to find him or get a hold of him, but they were all dead ends.. including my attempt at finding his number. I mean, I knew that even if I found it, there wasn't going to be some guarantee that he still had the same number. But, I had to try. So, I guess that's it.
I was feeling pretty "blah" today, and I decided to talk a few of my friends during my break. I tried talking to one person in particular because calling him always seemed to put a smile on my face. But, he wasn't feeling too happy either and I couldn't do anything about it. (Apparently, a lot of my friends weren't feeling too happy today, damn holidays.)
At first, I didn't really know why I felt so upset. I figured it was because I hate seeing my friends upset. But as I was driving home, I realized it was the same way Andy would act towards me when he had his off days. It reminded me a lot of his PTSD. It hit me bad. It wasn't something I expected to feel again or deal with again. I felt so useless when Andy was feeling "off". I couldn't do anything about it. I just let him do whatever it was that he needed to do and accepted that it was a flaw he was going to carry with him.
The highlight of my day.. After I got off the phone and went back to work, I had to stand outside for a bit. This guy, who looked almost exactly like my friend, walked up to me, smiled and proceeded to dance until I stopped frowning and started laughing. Once he got me to smile, he stopped dancing and walked away like nothing had happened :]
Totally looking forward to this year coming to an end. It's been one hell of a year. I need a new beginning.
I don't even care about New Year's Eve. I'm looking forward to New Year's Day.
Working 9:30am to 3pm. Heading home for a fresh change of clothes, driving down to Whitter for the Woolery's slammage tech day, then a massive caravan to the City of Industry for our New Year's Day KINOD in honor of Peter Li. I missed the OG KINODers. Fuck yea, it will be a good day :D
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let's start with the basics. the name's leslie. i was born on october 3rd, dont forget. i'm half chinese and half vietnamese. and no, i can't speak chinese to save my life. i'm a sister, friend, student, and kodak photographer. i'm the baby of the family and yes, i love it. i live with 3 older brothers and my parents in the valley. trying pull my life together and get as far from here as i can. now let's move on.
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think twice before you judge me. first impressions arent always accurate.
family, friends, and school are my priorities. never fake, always true. true to myself, true to my friends, my family, my faith. .
i've been hurt before, i've fallen time and time again. eventually, i move on and grow stronger with every problem i endure.
i can be the most random and happy person you'll ever meet or the biggest bitch you've ever talked to, that all depends on you. i won't deal with any bullshiet, give me the respect i deserve and i'll do the same for you.
my trust is hard to gain, easy to lose. i have no tolerance for liars or cheaters.
music is my therapy and writing will always be my escape. singing keeps me calm.
fall and winter are my favorites. give me a rainy day cuddled up on the couch and i'll be all smiles.
coffee. tiger lilies. white roses. toki doki. cars. pool tables. bowling. milk chocolate w/ toffee.
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