LAYOUT THEME: take me away.
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LAYOUT CREATED BY: leslie pham.
So, it's been a while since I've sat myself in front of my computer and actually blogged about myself or anything that's gone in my life. But, I thought it was about time I got back to it. For those who know me, writing was always my escape from every day life. It's helped me through some rough times, helped me see things from a different perspective when necessary.
For those who don't know me, you can find a quick and basic rundown of who I am by clicking on the link above titled "profile".
To describe my life in a nutshell, two words: MOVING ON
I suppose that's what I've been trying to do with my life these past couple of months. I've been put through a lot in the past. But, nothing can compared to what I felt this year.
Relationships:
I was pretty much a hermit this past year. I was with someone I believed was the guy I was going to marry. I know a lot of you are probably rolling you're eyes at me at this point. But for those few that knew us, anyone could see we were inseparable. We were young and in love. With every relationship, there's bound to be hardships. But, we worked through them. Towards the end, I knew it wasn't meant to be. However, I still held on because I wanted us to work. In the end, I lost. The love wasn't as strong as I had thought. He got married to someone else not too long after our break up.
Not many people realize why this was such a big deal to me. It wasn't because I lost him, but because of what he did. He wasn't the first one. My ex-boyfriend had proposed to me once before too, but I wasn't ready and I knew he wasn't the one. So, we eventually went our separate ways, and less than two months later he was engaged to someone else. Andy knew this story before we got together, he knew how I felt about marriage and relationships, he knew what my heart had gone through.. yet, he did the same.
Anyways, I spent the past couple of hours talking with my big sister and it made me realize quite a lot. The most important being that I really have moved on. This experience hurt me in ways you can never imagine, but I'm stronger, smarter, because of it. He caused me a lot of unnecessary grief, but I'm happier in millions of ways that I would not have been if I were still in that relationship.
Since then, I've stayed single for over 6 months now. That's a record. We'll see how it goes from here...
As I said, I was a hermit for the past year. I skipped out on a lot of my male friends because I didn't think it would be fair to my, then, boyfriend. I apologize for my actions. And I thank those of you who were still there by my side when everything came crashing down around me. I can't express how grateful I am to have the kind of friends I do in my life. Without them, I wouldn't be the person I am today.
School:
It's been over two years since I stepped foot in my first college class. I can still remember the first day of college, I was so lost and excited. Then I soon realized, colleges (or at least community colleges) are more like high schools but they offer you a better class selection and you can build your own schedule. I've moved away from that viewpoint since then, but I'm glad to say I'm almost done here. It's that time again. Filling out college applications and waiting for an acceptance/rejection letter. Let's hope it goes well.
Life:
I've grown a lot throughout these past years. Mostly emotionally, but mentally as well. Life is only going to be more difficult and challenging. I realized, if you stop learning, you'll only stop growing. Great opportunities come once in a lifetime, so take advantage of every moment and live every day as if it was your last. Learn to appreciate, love, and cherish every aspect of your life, cause you'll never know what may be taken from you. Life is too short to be anything but happy. So, I'll be happy.
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let's start with the basics. the name's leslie. i was born on october 3rd, dont forget. i'm half chinese and half vietnamese. and no, i can't speak chinese to save my life. i'm a sister, friend, student, and kodak photographer. i'm the baby of the family and yes, i love it. i live with 3 older brothers and my parents in the valley. trying pull my life together and get as far from here as i can. now let's move on.
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think twice before you judge me. first impressions arent always accurate.
family, friends, and school are my priorities. never fake, always true. true to myself, true to my friends, my family, my faith. .
i've been hurt before, i've fallen time and time again. eventually, i move on and grow stronger with every problem i endure.
i can be the most random and happy person you'll ever meet or the biggest bitch you've ever talked to, that all depends on you. i won't deal with any bullshiet, give me the respect i deserve and i'll do the same for you.
my trust is hard to gain, easy to lose. i have no tolerance for liars or cheaters.
music is my therapy and writing will always be my escape. singing keeps me calm.
fall and winter are my favorites. give me a rainy day cuddled up on the couch and i'll be all smiles.
coffee. tiger lilies. white roses. toki doki. cars. pool tables. bowling. milk chocolate w/ toffee.
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