save me from my thoughts..
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On Saturday, September 18, 2010 at 9:45 PM
Stars shine brighter when the world turns dark. So, I'll continue to shine.
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keeping track
On Tuesday, June 22, 2010 at 10:14 AM
Just a simple "calendar" so I don't lose track of what I'm doing.. disregard this post. lol.
June 25th - KINOD 4 year anniversary meet. Thank God it's Drifting Friday's at Willow Springs.
June 26th - Lunch with David. Memorial celebration/party in Long Beach. Cold Summer Nights Amateur Drifting Competition at Willows.
June 27th - IMATS with the sister.
June 30th to July 5th - Vegas.
July 9th and July 23rd - TGIDF at Willow Springs.
July 10th - Girl's night.
July 17th - Mx-5 MiataFest
August 21st - Rock the Bells 2010
August 27th - Kollaboration Acoustic 4
September 5th - ISA Los Angeles
September 25th and 26th - Epicenter Festival 2010
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On Saturday, June 19, 2010 at 3:47 PM
It's been a few weeks since I've done a real update. Quick break down:
1. I'm currently working at Starbucks.
2. I'm going to Vegas from June 30th - July 5th.
3. Excited for upcoming events: KINOD 4 year anniversary meet, IMATS, Kollaboration Acoustic 4, and Rock the Bells 2010.
5. Thank God it's Drifting Fridays next track dates are June 25th, July 9th, and July 23rd.
6. Still volunteering at Pet Orphans.
7. Working towards having my car finished before my birthday (suspension, tires, lip kit, paint).
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I'm done.
On Monday, May 17, 2010 at 10:29 PM
Or so I keep telling myself that.
I'm tired of being that girl, the one you come to when you're feeling down.. the other girl.. the one who has a million guys lined up.. take your pick, I've been there at some point this past year.. I have to admit that I enjoyed it for a while.
But, in reality, I want one guy and I want to be his one girl.
It's been a year since I've had that. And as much as I hate it, I have a feeling it'll continue..
You don't know it, but I'm waiting for you. Because, I feel like you're the only one who can make things better. Because, I'm hoping you can make things better. Because, I want you to make things better. I miss you.
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On Monday, May 10, 2010 at 2:36 PM
It's been a year..
A part of me is still struggling, a part of me still cares.. but I can honestly say, I'm glad things turned out the way they did.
I'm proud to say I've been single for a year.
This will be a good week, month, year. It has to be and I'll make sure that it is.
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It's been a while. Where to start?
On Sunday, March 28, 2010 at 10:13 PM
General:
Saturday was a pretty awesome day. Woke up early, relaxed for a bit, then headed out to Monterey Park to get a, much needed, haircut. I'm glad I decided to go back to my old stylist. She always knows how to cut my hair exactly the way I want it. She managed to keep the length and still give me layers where I needed/wanted them. It's not that different from how I usually cut my hair, but its short enough in some areas for me to change up the style.
After that, I headed over to Woolery's house for our Spring Tech Day. We had a great turnout. It was great to see familiar faces again, and to meet some new ones. Except, I still have a hard time connecting people's real names and faces to their forum IDs. And, I realized some people are really shy and don't really introduce themselves too well. I swear, next time I will come prepared with "hello, my name is" stickers! haha.
Speaking of cars.. My brother picked up some Work Goocars for me from Woolery a week or two ago. I can't wait to get them onto my car. I have to save up for the tires and suspension, but hopefully it won't take me too long. I also picked up some side skirts on Saturday for free. I forgot the guy's name, but thanks random stranger :D
Hopefully, my car will be done by my birthday. That's my goal. Lip kit, mudguards, rims, suspension, sound system, and paint.
Work and School:
Nothing new really. I'm on my Spring Break now, so I'm just trying to relax a bit and think some things through.
Relationships:
There's been a lot going on lately.. Let's start with a little story..
There was once a boy I really liked. There was a boy I once I couldn't stop thinking about, wondering where things went wrong, wondering if I had done something wrong, or maybe it just wasn't meant to be. One day, I simply gave up. I moved on. In the back of my head, I would wonder how he was doing. I would wonder how it would be if things had gone the way I wanted. I would miss his voice, his touch, his kiss. But, I was stubborn. I didn't want to try talking to him again. I figured, he would have forgotten me by then. And I moved forward. Eventually, I found someone I loved and wanted to be with, so I shushed that little voice inside of myself, and kept it locked away. When I lost that person, when I was finally moving forward again, I ran into that boy. I didn't know what to say, so I said nothing at all. I went home that night, and left him a message. Fast forward half a year, he pops back into my life. Things are said, but nothing has been done. Once again, I give up.
I'm not that girl I used to be. You're not that boy. Or maybe you are, maybe that's why this is happening again. I don't want to play these mind games. Especially with you. It's not worth it. I'm leaving the ball in your court. If you really want to see me, and prove that you miss me, then make it happen. I want you, but I'm not going to sit around and wait for you. Not again.
on another note..
Keo is deployed again. I didn't really get a chance to talk to him before he left. I miss him. I hope he knows that, but I doubt it. I miss the late night talks. He understood me, what I said and how I felt, when no one else did. 7 months. I can't wait until he comes home.
I've been having weird dreams about my ex lately. I think my subconscious is trying to tell me something. Most of the dreams have been about me running into my ex while I'm out with a new boyfriend. Happy and enjoying my life, while he's dragging along wife and kids in toll, depressed and miserable with his own life. lol.
I've been having some drama with friends lately. It felt like high school all over again. I left that kind of shit behind me, don't pull me into your problems. If it has nothing to do with me, then leave me out of it. Is that such a hard concept? I don't need, nor want, to be dragged down with you.
My sister comes home tomorrow. She should be on her plane right now. I can't wait to see her. It's only been two weeks and I already miss her. RAWR! <3
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life is good
On Thursday, March 18, 2010 at 11:55 PM
I have everything I need. If you were here, I'd have everything I want.
Life could be great.
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about me
let's start with the basics. the name's leslie. i was born on october 3rd, dont forget. i'm half chinese and half vietnamese. and no, i can't speak chinese to save my life. i'm a sister, friend, student, and kodak photographer. i'm the baby of the family and yes, i love it. i live with 3 older brothers and my parents in the valley. trying pull my life together and get as far from here as i can. now let's move on.
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think twice before you judge me. first impressions arent always accurate.
family, friends, and school are my priorities. never fake, always true. true to myself, true to my friends, my family, my faith. .
i've been hurt before, i've fallen time and time again. eventually, i move on and grow stronger with every problem i endure.
i can be the most random and happy person you'll ever meet or the biggest bitch you've ever talked to, that all depends on you. i won't deal with any bullshiet, give me the respect i deserve and i'll do the same for you.
my trust is hard to gain, easy to lose. i have no tolerance for liars or cheaters.
music is my therapy and writing will always be my escape. singing keeps me calm.
fall and winter are my favorites. give me a rainy day cuddled up on the couch and i'll be all smiles.
coffee. tiger lilies. white roses. toki doki. cars. pool tables. bowling. milk chocolate w/ toffee.
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It's been a while. Where to start?
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